2010 oh boy >_<

My God what a year 2009 was !


.... and now on to bigger better things ! 2010 better be better then the last !


Let me think about all the big things that happened in 2009, if i can still remember them ....

1) Still in the Army, went to Taiwan ! Which was an awesome trip, what a lovely country !

2) Really learnt a lot of those life lessons ! The value of water ! When i was there in the middle of the jungle close to passing out, dying of thirst. The little things we take for granted, the bed we can sleep in, the juicy fruit we eat, roofs over our head and more. All this i learn in the army, i now seem to experience life slightly differently, everything just feels so much more precious no matter how small it is, when i walk i feel how solid it is and how earth-ish it is. I could spend hours sitting there and just take in the beauty of nature.

3) I got the macbook and ipod touch ! Ha silly little cool gadgets !

4) I got in a fight, and it was then that i realise how to reverse the tables on them, make them lose control and RAGEEEE, which is important heh

5) Unfortunatly i had the same tactic used on me and  i got so angry i cried, little wuss

6) I practically completed all my army exercises without taking status, i pass everything ... my badges ... my marksman ... my rank... oh ! and we completed ATEC stage 1 too ! I was pretty proud !

7) I feel like i know people now, i can feel them better, what drives their motives and what they need. But that doesn't mean i show them empathy

8) The parents got divorced, not surprising however as i know they never truly loved each other, it doesn't change anything at all really.

9) The old commanders left, when they did i felt a part of me torn away, very sad as they were the one who kinda raised me in my infantile army beginnings.

10) Ever since sembawang wharf, i feel more efficent, when the old commanders left it feels like things changed and therefore i changed too. I'm much more efficent and analytical, carefully thoughtout plans.

Heh, well that is all i can remember for the moment. Its been one heck of a year, but i felt like i wasted it. A lot of good things happened and a lot of bad things happened, but mainly i felt like i ... didn't live up to what i should be doing.


This year, this year a lot of changes are coming and i worry. My final year in the army, just typing it breaks my heart. All of my friends and the commanders will depart and each live their own lives.